I apologize for my absence lately. Going through round one of IVF, moving into a new house and just dealing with life has given me nothing to blog about lately.
Actually, that isn't really the case. I've been staying away from my blog lately because of disappointing news that we received last week.
These were the two embryos that we implanted a few weeks ago. The implantation was very special. I was awake for this one and Simon was standing next to me holding my hand. We could see both of these little miracles via an ultrasound being implanted into my uterus. We prayed so hard that they would attach and thrive inside of me. However, that wasn't in the plan. We found out at the end of last week that we lost both of the embryos.
Although the news was so disappointing and we were down for the past week, our doctor's appointment yesterday lifted our spirits. He told us that many people cannot get pregnant with fresh embryos and that there is a 2% greater chance of pregnancy with frozen embryos, as the body isn't going through the intense hormonal peaks that are needed to harvest the eggs. He also assured us that we would get pregnant, and that he has never had a couple our age not get pregnant.
This news was fantastic for me. This past week, I had completely given up hope. I told Simon to use the bedroom that was originally supposed to be the baby's room as his office. I started thinking about us buying a speedy two-seater instead of a family car. I had begun trying to imagine life without children, which was hard to handle. Now, we have a renewed hope and I'm happy to say that the process of using frozen embryos is a lot less intense, which is why it gives us better chances of conceiving.
Thank you so much for all of your prayers and thoughts that you've given us over the past month. Please continue to keep us in your prayers as we try and try again to become parents.
I promise to come back soon with a scrappy post! My desk isn't arriving until Monday, but I have been scrapbooking on the floor!